Copyright BipolarPod 2018
Welcome to my wonderful world of mixed feelings and emotions. Where the sky can be blue one second and the next it can be red, yellow, green, purple, orange. It never stops amazing me that I have such a problem that I can feel all the emotions one person can feel multiple times a day, every second or hour of the day. I can switch moods so quickly that even if I tried to look back I’m already past the other mood as if I was driving down the highway at full speed. This is how my Bipolar mind works and it’s not all that enjoyable.
The best part of being me is, I can come up with some pretty fantastic ideas at times. These ideas make me want to continue moving forward and want to share it with the world. A moment I can be sitting and thinking I’m pretty plain. An idea forms and pops out like a sore thumb. I take that idea and run with it as fast as I can. It mostly happens pretty quickly. I don’t hesitate and I don’t think about anything else. I get a less than perfect in my mind rough draft of the idea and I start showing it off like it was gold I just found in a stream. Hey, look at this. I just made this and its pretty awesome isn’t it. I seek that feedback that I am doing good. Then most times then others, I don’t get the feedback I desired and halt the project and place the plans in the rejected pile.
Sometimes I wish I could just not do that anymore.